Temporarily Lost

So I wanted to record this for my own sake. We as moms ALWAYS feel like NO ONE can take care of your babies better that you can. We are always careful, thinking ahead, and always in control. Right??? Ok maybe not all those things all the time, but our babies are always best with us. Soo the other night about 5:15 I was sitting on the bench helping Kylee with her piano. I heard the door to the garage shut and called out to Kobi. No answer. I yell for Kruz. No answer. I know I need to get up and check on them, but then I hear the door shut again. Kobi comes in with her wrist and elbow pads. I ask her where Kruz is and she said "he is riding the scooter in the garage." OK. I know I need to go get him, but Kobi asks me to put her pads on. I do it quick, it probably takes 3-4 minutes. I tell her to hurry to the garage and check on Kruz. I here the door close again, and then open. I hear "MOM, the garage is OPEN, dad isn't even home, and Kruz is GONE, I can't find him." I RUN into the garage, and to the driveway and sure enough he isn't there. Our street with 17 kids living on it, is deserted. My heart just drops. Since we are the corner house, I head to my left where the bigger street is, and it is also the direction you would go around the corner to the school. I need to make sure he wasn't crossing that street or going around the corner. BUT...Just as soon as I turned that direction, I stopped. I turned back around and his bright yellow shirt caught my eye. He was across our street and one house down, at the neighbors house he knows so well. He was past their open gate, in their courtyard, sitting down on the bridge looking at their fish in the pond. I FREAKED!!! I ran over there, but didn't yell his name for fear it would scare him and he would fall in. But in my head, THAT WAS MY FEAR. Oh my goodness. What if he did fall in??? What if he couldn't stand up in the pond? Oh my goodness.

I of course made it to him safely, we came back into the garage, I asked him how he had opened the garage, and he proceeded to step onto the "diaper trash can" and then could reach the opener. Ohh man. I was shaking. I didn't know what to do with him, so I put him in his highchair and set the timer for 3 minutes, went into the other room, and just tried to calm down. I had so many thoughts going through my head and I was just so EXTREMELY grateful I had found him and he was safe.

I haven't stopped thinking about this incident and just how fast something can happen. To even the best of people. I have always thought I was so careful, and so watchful. It really did show me just HOW FAST something bad can happen.

*** Just a quick note. Most of you that will read this will also probably know who's house Kruz was at. I don't want anyone to think for one second that I am mad. I told her about it the next day and she felt bad, but I am certainly not upset at her AT ALL.

I just wanted to have this recorded for years down the road.